Lately, I’ve been searching through pro-life/abolitionist groups on Facebook and reporting any photos of bloody/dismembered fetuses. Why? Mostly to annoy anti-abortion supporters by getting their photos slapped with a warning of graphic content. Sounds petty, I know, but being a dick on Facebook is nothing compared to anti-abortion protesters of varying degrees of wrath and confrontation parading outside women’s healthcare clinics and abortion providers to stalk and harass women.
Before realizing that Wisconsin Right to Life is the type of pro-life group that doesn’t use graphic imagery, I came across this photo from July 14, 2016:
I never thought I’d be discussing Pokémon in relation to a pro-life group considering that the series has been put on blast by Christian conservatives since its debut. Yet, here we are.
Perhaps WRTL inserted the Pokémon mascot into their propaganda in order to appeal to teenagers and young adults, but it’s laughable they would even consider using Pokémon GO in their pro-life propaganda due to one major aspect of the game: Pokémon transferring.
Let’s say I catch a Pikachu. What happens if I realize I don’t have the time, space, resources, and/or desire to train a Pikachu (or another Pikachu if I already have one or more)? What if I ended up with the Pikachu because someone took my phone and played around with my Pokémon GO app without my consent? What if an assessment reveals low IV stats and the Pikachu won’t be able to battle like all the normal, healthy Pikachus?? I can Transfer it. That means, I get rid of it. And easily! I don’t have opinionated Arceus zealots outside PokeStops telling me if I didn’t want that Pikachu I should have kept my storage bag closed and not thrown any Pokémon Balls. There was never an underground channel of Nurse Joys willing to risk prison to help female trainers illegally Transfer their unwanted Pokémon before Transferring was legalized. Gym Leaders aren’t making rules to limit access to Pokémon Transferring. The game only asks me if I’m sure I want to transfer that Pokémon and, if I choose “yes”, it takes away the unwanted Pikachu forever and I get a Pikachu Candy.
Maybe it’s not such a good idea for a pro-life group to reference a video game where you can easily get rid of living creatures for being an inconvenience or conflicting with your avatar’s lifestyle.
But wait! It gets worse!
Where does the Pokémon Candy you get after transferring the Pokémon come from? No one really knows, but some theorize (and joke) that the Candy is the result of KILLING the Pokémon you just transferred and being made into Candy. Candies are used to raise Combat Power. If these power-ups are truly made with transferred Pokémon, then we have an in-game equivalent of using aborted fetuses for stem cell research and making vaccines.
MAYBE it’s not such a good idea for a pro-life group to reference a video game where you can easily get rid of living creatures for being an inconvenience or conflicting with your avatar’s lifestyle…which then may be killed to make strengthening sweets.
The women’s clinic was open this past Wednesday and, of course, was plagued with the outside presence of a couple of pro-birth men holding their professionally printed anti-abortion signs out in the cold. I was perched in the café room of the library across the street researching credentials of RN’s and medical directors that were listed with some of Wisconsin’s crisis pregnancy centers. Occasionally, I glanced out the window to watch the two men conversing with each other while ensuring that their signs were in full view of the public.
I’ve been too afraid to stand up to them since a picture of me with a couple women was printed in the opinion section along with an unflattering pro-life letter because we had dared to counter-protest their pro-life event last October. It took me a long time to come to terms with the fact that it shook me. With my anxiety and fear of retaliation, I’m surprised I even managed to stand up to them at all. It hasn’t stopped me from coming to the library every other week to observe them outside the clinic and occasionally checking the pamphlet holders in the entryway to see if Faust has left cards for a local crisis pregnancy center. But when I have to go to the clinic for birth control, I rush past them like a scared mouse to avoid any interaction.
It was another typical bi-weekly Wednesday: Zealots with signs that read “Abortion Hurts Women” and “Abortion Kills Children” while I watched from afar and typed away on my laptop.
Or I thought it was going to be.
I looked out the window to see the two men with a young woman carrying a small child. Faust was standing towards the back of her while Brian (aka. “Dicktator) was standing in the middle of the sidewalk facing her. Brian looked like he was scolding her rather than speaking to her, empathizing with one hand while his other hand held his sign so that it could be seen. To be fair, he’s always looks mean, but he earned the nickname “Dicktator” for being the most aggressive of the protesters. I couldn’t see the woman’s face as she spoke with him. I’ve seen women approach the protesters to speak with them, usually to tell them off, but Brian blocking the sidewalk concerned me. Maybe she was being polite and putting up with their nonsense. However, I assumed she was just speaking with them so I snapped a photo on my phone and went back to typing.
I basically had the mindset of a BBC nature documentary photographer: Don’t get involved and only observe and document. But something came over me. I didn’t feel right just being an observant bystander with the assumption that she was willingly talking with them. I wasn’t really sure if my assumption was correct and the uncertainty bothered me enough to take action despite whatever anxiety I felt. I finally quickly gathered my things, strapped on my heavy backpack, and strolled out of the library with a brazen determination that felt wonderful yet foreign. As I crossed the street, the men took notice of me, but I didn’t care.
“Miss…are these men bothering you?”
It seems like a simple thing to ask, but approaching a complete stranger for any reason is not simple when you have a lack of social skills and an abundance of anxiety. No amount of confidence and determination could have stopped my heart from beating rapidly as it was when I walked up to this woman. I wouldn’t have been surprised if my heart violently beat itself out of my chest and plopped right onto the sidewalk.
She explained to me that she had conversed with some of these protesters before she had given birth to her child. She was open to understanding different views so she was just talking to them. Turns out my initial assumption had been correct after all, but asking if she was okay was still the right thing to do.
Before I could feel better knowing that she wasn’t being harassed (or at least didn’t feel like she was being harassed) and tell her “I wasn’t sure and wanted to check if you were okay”, Faust opened his mouth.
“This is Sam. She accuses us of being bullies in the paper.” (I haven’t written anything for the opinion section of the paper for several months).
Brian chimed in, but Faust’s comment had thrown me off guard so all I heard was “She’s a Satan worshiper”. (During our second interaction a couple years ago, he learned I had donated to the clinic and scolded me of continuing to live in ignorance as our previous conversation obviously hadn’t turned me into a God-fearing Christian. I responded by telling him I found Satan because I knew it would get a rise out of him.)
I find it ironic that Faust chose to bring up my accusations of pro-life bullying considering the men’s behavior towards me at that moment. There was a number of ways Faust could have introduced me to this woman, but he chose something that sounded negative and belittling. Brian felt the need to point out to her that I was a “Satan worshiper”, a trait he most certainly finds undesirable being the religious fanatic he is. Introducing someone with insults…well, that sounds like bullying to me.
I decided to bring up something someone had told me they had seen while picking up his daughter at the bus stop near the library.
“So you’re not bullies?” I asked. “Would you explain to me why someone told me they witnessed you chasing a young woman in crutches?”
I expected they might say how absurd such a claim was and attempt to reassure me they would never do such a thing being the pro-woman champions for human life that they are (#sarcasm). Instead, they laughed in my face like I had told them the funniest joke. Getting laughed at was humiliating.
“A woman in crutches! Oh, that’s a good one! You ever hear of Fake News?” Faust asked me, still laughing.
I looked down at their signs feeling embarrassed. The protesters have favorite signs. Faust’s favorite is “Abortion Hurts Women”. Brian was holding his “ABORTION KILLS CHILDREN” sign and I saw it had been modified recently—it now has a printed cut out of a mutilated fetus pasted next to the word “KILL”.
“This…” I said, pointing to their signs, “This…is Fake News. I’ll make a donation to the clinic in your honor.”
I’d be lying if I said the situation didn’t make me feel flustered and put off guard. I’ve admittedly gotten rusty at standing up to “pro-life” protesters. I felt small and stressed after giving my retaliation donation and going back to the library café room, but also had a sense of pride having asked a complete stranger if she was okay and being prepared to get her out of that situation if she was truly being harassed.
Would I do it again even if it felt scary and overwhelming? Hell yeah, I would!
Whenever Faust submits one of his anti-abortion letters to the paper, more letters echoing the same ideology are likely to follow so I wasn’t surprised to see this letter in the paper last week:
Here are some tidbits of information regarding Planned Parenthood (PP) and Crisis Pregnancy Centers in Wisconsin. According to Planned Parenthood’s own report from 2014-2015:
*PP’s non-abortion services (birth control, cancer screenings, etc.) have decreased over time.
*98% of American women never visit a PP facility in any given year.
*.08% of women of reproductive age went to PP for a breast exam (none received a mammogram).
*PP performed 323,999 abortions in 2014 nearly one-third of the nation’s abortions.
*Their revenue in 2014 reached almost $1.3 billion dollars, and they received $553.7 million in taxpayer dollars that year.
There are eight Crisis Pregnancy Centers within 50 miles of Black River Falls. There are four-plus centers in La Crosse, one in Eau Claire, two in Marshfield, and one in Necedah:
Apple Pregnancy Care Center, Eau Claire 1.800.712.4357
Agape Pregnancy Resource Center, La Crosse 608.784.4966
Birthright of La Crosse, La Crosse 1.800.550.4900
New Life Resource Center, La Crosse 608.785.2377
Gerard Hall La Crosse (Maternity Home) 608.392.3985, 24/7 helpline
Birthright Marshfield, The Hannah Center, Marshfield (Maternity Home) 715.387.6300
7 Sorrows of Our Sorrowful Mother, Necedah 608.565.2417
These dedicated centers do not receive tax dollars but are helping women over the long haul.
This list does not include help provided by Catholic Charities and Lutheran Social Service.
Black River Falls
I had seen the report she was referring to some time ago and I remember wondering what factors could be contributing to these decreases in healthcare services. Were they affected by new guidelines recommending pap smears be performed less often? Were women getting longer-term birth control like IUDs, which may result in fewer visits as women only need these types of birth control replaced every few years? Did some low-income women gain access to insurance through the Affordable Care Act and now gets reproductive healthcare through a regular doctor? Could Planned Parenthood performing nearly 1/3 of the nation’s abortions be the result of anti-abortion groups and lawmakers lobbying for Targeted Regulation of Abortion Providers (TRAP) laws that have forced many independent providers to close down?
Anti-abortion supporters don’t ask questions as to why healthcare services are decreasing. They see reports like this and automatically declare that it’s proof of their beliefs that Planned Parenthood is nothing more than a “murder mill”.
Planned Parenthood did indeed receive $553 million in tax dollars that year. HOWEVER…A legislative provision called The Hyde Amendment bars the use of federal funds to pay for abortion services except when it’s medically necessary to save the life of the woman or in cases of rape or incest. Seventeen states use state funds to provide medically necessary abortions—Wisconsin isn’t one of them. Title X, a grant program that helps provide family planning and reproductive healthcare services to low-income women, strictly prohibits its funds from being used towards abortion services. Translation: TAXES DON’T FUND ELECTIVE ABORTIONS!!!
The writer neglected to describe the services crisis pregnancy centers have to offer, but the letter seemed to imply that they were somehow better alternatives to Planned Parenthood and were more beneficial to women. Luckily and somewhat ironically, I’m currently researching 64 crisis pregnancy centers in Wisconsin—here’s a quick run-down of their services:
*21 claim to have medical staff. Yet 56 offer pregnancy tests. This could mean that, for a majority of centers, pregnancy tests aren’t being administered by medical professionals or the tests themselves are self-administered (three centers admit their tests are self-administered. From personal experience, Apple PCC does self-administered tests—they didn’t state they did, however).
*50 provide material support—diapers, formula, etc. —to mothers. 20 of those centers state material support is through an Earn While You Learn program where women earn points through classes and/or Bible study to be able to “buy” items.
*All 64 offer options information. In general, centers insisted on an appointment to receive information, but some had some information on their website. 18 centers had information on their website that was inaccurate or exaggerated (abortion causes breast cancer, miscarriage rates being as high as 40%, etc.)
*35 perform ultrasounds. 18 describe their ultrasound services as “limited”, half of which describe “limited” means only confirming a heartbeat and gestational age. Only six of those centers claimed to have medical staff. There could be 29 centers operating ultrasound machines without people that aren’t trained to use them and/or the guidance of medical professionals. In Wisconsin, women must undergo an ultrasound before obtaining an abortion and Wisconsin law states that abortion providers have to perform this ultrasound themselves or arrange for a qualified person to perform it. This didn’t stop three crisis pregnancy centers from suggesting they do ultrasound imaging for the purposes of receiving an abortion. They do this as a tactic to delay or prevent women from getting abortion services. Women seeking abortion services are promised a free ultrasound only to find out at their appointment that their free ultrasound image is medically worthless and doesn’t meet state abortion requirements.
*13 perform STD testing. Only 4 offer treatments for the STDs they test for.
*2 offered prenatal care—in the form of prenatal vitamins.
*Only 1 center performed pap smears.
*None dispensed birth control or performed mammograms.
I wonder if services were intentionally left out of the letter as crisis pregnancy centers have a mixed bag of services and are mostly not medical. Planned Parenthood doesn’t perform mammograms, but neither do crisis pregnancy centers—well, Wisconsin’s crisis pregnancy centers anyways.
Based on the services alone—not including the misinformation crisis pregnancy centers spread and deceptive tactics they have employed—crisis pregnancy centers aren’t a better alternative to Planned Parenthood as most don’t provide medical services and when they do those services are extremely limited. Planned Parenthood may not provide mammograms, but neither do crisis pregnancy centers—well, Wisconsin crisis pregnancy centers anyways.
Perhaps the only real benefit of crisis pregnancy centers would be its material support to women that carry to term and need help obtaining baby items, but I’m not entirely sold on it. There was one crisis pregnancy center–the Alpha Women’s Center–that actually provided a breakdown of how their version of Earn While You Learn works.
Lessons are 2 points each while verse to memorize are 1 point each. The amount each baby item costs varies, but the larger the item the more points it costs. Consumable items cost less points, but the center limits how many of these items can be earned per week, per child. This is assuming the items are in stock as there’s a disclaimer stating they cannot guarantee the availability of the item as most of the items are donated. This is also assuming women are comfortable participating in this particular Earn While You Learn program as it’s completely based around Bible study. (I personally find it to be an attempt at religious indoctrination in exchange for baby goods.) I don’t doubt this can be helpful to women that need a little help rounding out their consumable supplies, but I do debate that it helps women “for the long haul” when its required that women complete a potentially large number of tasks for a small amount of items that may not be in stock.
Contrary to what the opinion letter claimed, tax dollars do help fund crisis pregnancy centers. A lot of tax dollars that has gone towards crisis pregnancy centers has come from federal programs for abstinence-only education. A center in Wisconsin petitioned the city of Madison for low-interest loans to build a maternity home, which could have come from the city’s Affordable Housing Trust Fund and Community Development Housing Reserve Fund had the city council not withdrew support over concerns about the crisis pregnancy center’s misleading medical information. While governor, Mike Pence took $3.5 million from the state’s Temporary Assistance For Needy Families and gave it to Real Alternatives, an anti-abortion group that helps open, finance, and direct women to crisis pregnancy centers. Seven states have used TAFN dollars to fund crisis pregnancy centers, apparently giving $30 million over the course of 4 years. The Bush administration gave $60 million in federal tax dollars to crisis pregnancy centers. These numbers seem small in comparison to the tax dollars Planned Parenthood receives in order to give women access to reproductive healthcare and family planning services. However, its a lot of tax dollars to be giving to anti-abortion groups that have used deception and inaccurate information to misguide women about their options.
This isn’t including money generated from the sales of Choose Life license plates or fundraising events like the various Walks for Life that are tax free because these crisis pregnancy centers are non-profit organizations. Again, money that goes to anti-abortion groups that lie to women and, at best, offer a couple healthcare services that may or may not be provided by licensed medical staff.
Of course, the deception or the lack of essential services doesn’t stop anti-abortion supporters like Katie Edwards from praising crisis pregnancy centers and making them out to be valuable alternatives to women’s healthcare clinics regardless of whether they actually provide any medical services or if they’re known to be untruthful to the women they claim to want to help.
In 2003, Heartbeat International and Care Net joined forces to create Option Line, a pro-life contact center designed to reach out to women seeking answers about pregnancy options. Care Net president, Melinda Delahoyde, stated about its website upgrade, “When a young woman suspects she might be pregnant, she often goes online for help. We’ve designed our new Option Line website so that it’s one of the first places she visits. By putting her in touch with a local pregnancy center, Option Line is connecting her to life-saving support for her and her unborn child.”
A feature the website promotes is its 24/7 Option Line live chat:
“If you are wondering whether or not you’re pregnant, your mind is probably racing with questions. It’s common to feel confused, scared, or overwhelmed. Option Line live chat is available any time, day or night. We offer free, confidential help, information about pregnancy signs and symptoms, information on all your options, and we can quickly connect you to the local assistance you need. Call our pregnancy helpline at 1-800-712-4357 or chat with us now!”
I decided to see what the chat service is like. I tried it three times, posing as different women with different pregnancy situations. Here are the results along with the conversations, which had to be screen shot in sections and put together.
Maya. Age 21. Los Angeles. Missed a couple periods.
After answering the initial automated message, I waited for about three or four minutes before I got a response. This would probably feel excruciating if I had been a woman seeking help for a pregnancy scare.
With this chat, she almost immediately directed me to a crisis pregnancy center, which she basically got from putting the zip code I had given through the “Find A Center By Zip Code” on their website and copied and pasted the information on it in the chat. She insisted on their “free and confidential” services, but at the the same time didn’t know anything about it because “every center is different”.
While I was glad to know that she was upfront with me about the center not being like a doctor’s office, I wondered if it was because I had asked. What bothered me was her saying “It is not a doctor’s office” and then going onto say they may have medical staff, they may have me fill out medical paperwork, and its helpful to bring an ID. They’re not a doctor’s office, but I might have to fill out medical paperwork and ID information for medical professionals working there? She repeatedly noted the confidentiality of the center, but by her own words they’re also not a medical facility that would have to be required by law to safeguard patient information.
The conversation abruptly ends because…well…she stopped responding! I waited for ten minutes on information about the kind of resources the center would offer and eventually assumed I wasn’t worth her time. From her perspective, I was experiencing a pregnancy scare. I thought I could get information from the actual chat, but it seemed like she was pushing me to go to this center to get all my questions answered.
As far as the crisis pregnancy center she gave me, it looks insanely medical. Calling itself “a licensed medical clinic”, it apparently offers pregnancy testing, options counseling, proof of pregnancy, limited ultrasounds, facts about abortion and risks, STD information, post abortion counseling, information on natural family planning, and a ton of referrals. But there are little hints that it’s a crisis pregnancy center like emphasis on miscarriage and scheduling an appointment to get abortion information and a total lack of reproductive health care service like pap smears, cancer screenings, STD testing and treatment, and birth control despite claiming to be a medical clinic for women. The center is listed with a few pro-life groups including the National Institute of Family and Life Advocates (NIFLA), a “faith-based Christian ministry that seeks to glorify God by proclaiming the sanctity of human life, both born and unborn” that also helps equip crisis pregnancy centers with legal counsel. A couple Yelp reviews commented that they were pushy about religion and marriage, one noting that she didn’t find the prying into her personal life and relationship appropriate or desired.
Shiloh. Age 19. Madison. Looking for abortion clinic
I conducted this chat the next morning to see if it would be any different from the experience I had the previous evening (I did the chat from my phone instead of the laptop). Again, I waited several minutes for a response after I answered the automated question. I was transferred to “Stephanie”, the same support agent who took my previous chat.
Again, she immediately promoted a nearby pregnancy center with “free and confidental” services.
When I read the description of the chat services, it sounded like it was staffed with pregnancy experts that would talk women through their options in addition to connecting me with one of their centers. (In fact, Google “pregnancy experts” and Option Line is the third search result). I assumed there would be at least some exchange of information, even if that information was based on pro-life propaganda. So far, there wasn’t exchange of information other than addresses to these crisis pregnancy centers that would discuss the answers I was seeking. She did state without any prompting that “We do not perform or refer for abortion”. Yet she was still trying to get me into a crisis pregnancy center to get more information on that option.
This chat reminded me of a NARAL report that references a documentary called “12th and Delaware”, quoting a CPC director training volunteers on how to answer phone calls and get abortion-minded women through the doors:
If you don’t hook her right away, she hangs up on you. When she calls and says, “Do you do abortions?”, I say “Are you calling for yourself or are you calling for your friend?”…and we engage in conversation. Because if she calls and says “Do you do abortions?” and I say “No”…click! [The CPC director pantomimes hanging up the phone] I’m trying to get her in the door. Take control of that conversation. I don’t mind the criticisms of taking control. “That doesn’t sound fair.” Well, too bad!
That scene seems to match perfectly with what happened in this chat. I explained I was looking for an abortion clinic. The support agent could have just stated they don’t help with abortion. Instead, she went, “Well, we don’t perform or refer to abortions. Butour pregnancy centers have a lot of good information on abortion that you may find useful and they would be happy to discuss it with you. Oh, look! Here’s one in your town! Did I mention services are free and confidential?”
I felt like sticking it to her by telling her that I would look elsewhere for abortion information. It didn’t seem like she was willing to give me any information beyond contact information for a crisis pregnancy center, anyways.
The crisis pregnancy center she pulled up is one of many Wisconsin-based crisis pregnancy centers I have researched. When I first researched it about a year and a half ago, it went by a different name: Care Net of Dane County. It used to be more open about being a pro-life organization, but it has since removed all the pro-life and Christian references and made its website look and sound like its a legit women’s clinic. It still goes by Care Net of Dane County in its secondary donor website, which includes its real mission statement and all the other Christian pro-life things the organization removed from its client website.
Ellie. Age 19. Eau Claire. Pregnant and scared.
Note: Two replies either weren’t screenshot or accidentally cropped off when assembling the conversation together and didn’t realize this until after saving everything.
Finally, a different support agent!
Whereas “Stephanie” seemed to want a quick answer to the woman’s situation and immediately direct her to the nearest “free and confidential” crisis pregnancy center, “Ashley” seemed to want to have a better understanding of the situation and was more empathetic to what the woman was feeling. She gave sensible advice that I would personally give to a woman unsure what to do about an unplanned pregnancy: get information on all your options and carefully explore them before making a decision. If “Ellie” had been a real woman experiencing an unplanned pregnancy and was scared and uncertain, she probably would have thought she was helpful, understanding, and caring. But eventually, “Ashley” segued the conversation towards going to a crisis pregnancy center to re-confirm the pregnancy, discuss my options, and possibly get scheduled for an ultrasound.
I purposely picked an Eau Claire zip code knowing they would give me Apple Pregnancy Care Center. After our local protesters began handing their business cards in front of the Essential Health Clinic and leaving them at the library, I decided to go there for a pregnancy test to see what it was like.
“Ashley” said I could possibly get scheduled for an ultrasound. Except that Apple doesn’t list ultrasounds as one of its services. Ultrasounds were also brought up in the last chat as well. “Shiloh” was seeking an abortion clinic while “Ellie” was undecided yet leaning towards abortion, making both women technically “abortion minded”. Take a look at what “Ashley” said about ultrasounds: “It will also be helpful to do an ultrasound to confirm how far along you are and to determine that you have a viable pregnancy. [emphasis added].”
Many crisis pregnancy centers exaggerate miscarriage rates in order to convince women that they don’t need an abortion. By offering ultrasound services they can “confirm” whether the pregnancy is viable. Some crisis pregnancy centers, like Women’s Support Center, truthfully tell women that an ultrasound is required to receive abortion services and then promote their free ultrasounds services. But crisis pregnancy centers aren’t doing this to be helpful to women seeking abortion. They are fully aware that a woman will go to her scheduled abortion and find out that the ultrasound image she was given at the crisis pregnancy center is worthless, delaying her abortion (hopefully past the point she can get one) because she doesn’t meet the requirements. In Wisconsin, according to an actual abortion clinic, the required ultrasound must be performed at the abortion provider and their website warns of a nearby crisis pregnancy center that provides free pregnancy tests and ultrasounds.
Having been to Apple PCC for a pregnancy test, I found the comments on pregnancy testing to be quite interesting. “Ashley” explained the pregnancy tests at the center could be more accurate than the cheap, Walmart one I bought, mainly because they’re done at the center and someone can verify the results and make sure the test is working properly. “Someone” being a volunteer and not a medical professional, by the way.
Apple PCC’s super accurate pregnancy tests are nearly identical to this over the counter pregnancy test that you can buy at Walmart for a mere 88 cents:
Normally, when you go to a doctor’s office for a pregnancy test, you pee in a sturdy plastic cup with a nice screw-on top that you’ll never see again and the nurse gives you results in five minutes. At Apple PCC, I was asked a bunch of medical and moral questions for about twenty minutes before the volunteer even let me take a piss in a LITERAL DIXIE CUP. Then I was taken to a room with the Dixie cup-o-urine where I was instructed to use the dropper to dispense my own urine onto this cheap pregnancy test and the volunteer and I both confirmed there was only one solid line. It was the same as an at home pregnancy test, but with a pro-life volunteer asking questions about my sex life and religion.
Like the crisis pregnancy centers, the Option Line chat is designed to appear helpful to women experiencing unplanned pregnancies and offer guidance on a decision. However, crisis pregnancy centers are not about helping women navigate all their pregnancy options because “all-options” would include abortion and they’re not supportive of abortion. The Option Line chat is an extension of the pro-life movement, which is about restricting choice. Option Line’s goal is to get women through the doors of crisis pregnancy centers. Maybe the support agents are willing to admit that their centers don’t offer or refer for abortion, but they didn’t state that their centers are actually pro-life ministries. The centers that were recommended don’t state they’re pro-life ministries on their client website, but First Care Clinic and Apple PCC both have donor websites that do state a pro-life mission and Christian beliefs (in Apple PCC’s case, admitting they don’t refer or offer abortion or birth control). I feel like these agents try to get women into these centers, providing as little information as possible while asserting that these centers are to be trusted. The agent from the first conversation was singing the praises of crisis pregnancy centers, but wouldn’t offer an answer to my question about their resources. I imagine if I had gotten an answer she would have told me to call the center to schedule an appointment so they could discuss that information with me and remind me that their services are free and confidential.
In any case, Option Line’s chat service, regardless of how knowledgeable a woman using it is on crisis pregnancy centers, is more like the website’s “Find A Center By Zip Code” feature with an added sales pitch rather than a online chat with pregnancy experts that will answer all the questions racing through the mind of a woman experiencing an unplanned pregnancy.
Faust submitted another one of his pro-life letters to the paper. I don’t find it coincidental that he wrote and submitted one right before the annual pro-life event “March for Life”.
“Regrettable and Avoidable”
On this 45th anniversary of the SCOTUS Roe abortion opinion, there is ample evidence that child killing is regrettable. First are the nearly 60 million lives that have been snuffed out. Second is the collective accumulation of regret by the very women abortion was touted as helping. If abortion is so liberating and positive, why do most women seek other alternatives and use abortion as a last resort? As we converse with women outside the Essential Health Clinic about the dangers and risks of abortion, the most common response is, “That’s why I’m here, to get my contraceptives.” If abortion is so beneficial, contraceptives would never be used. If you get pregnant, simply have an abortion.
The second most common response is, “I would never have an abortion.” This is also why we point them in the direction of real, tangible help without killing the baby should plan “A” fail and they become pregnant. The fact that women change their mind outside clinics moments before they are scheduled to abort is more evidence that they want to avoid it. When help is offered, many women choose life. Even among those who would consider abortion, no one looks forward to that day. It is puzzling that if abortion is so liberating and positive a choice, wouldn’t young girls dream about having one? How absurd. At best, it is a necessary evil which most girls hope they never have to experience. Doesn’t that tell you what the true nature of abortion is like?
To counter this reluctance (and regret from post-abortive women), Planned Parenthood promoted the “Shout Your Abortion” campaign, inviting young women to share their stories. The campaign barely registered a whisper, let alone a shout. The stories are sad and women don’t want to share them, which is more evidence that abortion is regrettable.
Thankfully, abortion is also avoidable. The best resort to assure never having to use the last resort of abortion is abstinence until marriage. Though constantly maligned, abstinence proves itself over and over as the surest way to avoid both the physical and emotional fallout of sex outside of marriage. Those practicing abstinence need never worry about pregnancy, STDs, or the emotional meltdowns that accompany sex outside of marriage.
What a blessing it would be if 2018 was the last year for legalized killing of babies.
—Pastor Sam Faust
I promised myself I wouldn’t respond to anymore letters, but I’m sort of debating it. We’ll see if I actually do, but I will blog some thoughts on it in the meantime (it may or may not sound incoherent as I’m writing on the fly).
A quick argument to some of his points: most women aren’t traumatized by their abortion like he suggests (because…facts, studies, research, and a pro-life surgeon general not siding with pro-lifers because of this science), the Shout Your Abortion campaign was actually fairly successful having gone viral with tens of thousands of women telling their own abortion stories, and I shouldn’t have to explain that abortion isn’t supposed to be used as a form of birth control like Faust sarcastically suggests.
Faust is correct that women don’t look forward to abortion. Well, people don’t look forward to or enjoy chemotherapy either, but many chose it because they feel its right for their situation and the end result can be relief. Some don’t even chose cancer treatments because of their beliefs or they’re too far along in the same sense some women don’t choose abortion for the same reasons. These anti-abortion supporters telling a woman she shouldn’t be allowed to have an abortion because she chose to engage in sex is comparable to telling a lung cancer patient he should be denied treatment because he chose to chain smoke cigarettes for 20 years.
I believe abortion can be positive in the sense that it brings a sense of relief to most women and they go on to leave thriving lives they may have not had if they chose to carry to term. I know this isn’t the case for every woman who has an abortion, which is why I’m highly supportive of access to accurate information and good resources so women are able to make informed choices they can live with (whether that be parenting, adoption, OR abortion) and to think about what they would do in case of an unplanned pregnancy before one possibly happens.
I can only make an educated guess on what Faust meant by his group pointing women in the direction of “real, tangible help” as he wasn’t specific on the details. Honestly, I would be interested in learning how many women they’ve assisted and what kind of help was offered. Regardless, I would like to point out that the Essential Health can legally confirm a woman’s pregnancy (being they are a legit health provider) and help her obtain benefits like WIC, Food Share, and Badger Care so that she is able to take care of herself and her child. Not to mention vital reproductive healthcare services, birth control options, and sex education and resources on parenting, prenatal care, adoption, and domestic abuse and sexual assault. Unlike the protesters, who are a part of a movement that relies on twisting the truth, the clinic provides medically accurate information on abortion procedures and its risks, which are quite minimal in reality despite anti-abortion supporters saying otherwise. However, the clinic staff had explained to me that due to the clinic’s efforts in greatly curbing unplanned pregnancy through birth control and sex education (which, yes, does include abstinence) only the tiniest fraction of what they do at the clinic is counsel pregnant women and give information and resources regarding pregnancy options. If you ask me, that fits the definition of being real, tangible help.
A real blessing would be if 2018 was the year that Faust and his anti-abortion group of ignorant sidewalk counselors stopped pretending to know the facts (they obviously have not done any sort of research outside what anti-abortion groups say) and left the local women’s clinic and its patients the Hell alone. For nearly two years, the protesters have paraded on the sidewalk in front of the Essential Health Clinic while claiming to be some sort of lifeline for women with a message of help and hope, but their presence at the clinic has not been a positive one. At the very least, the group tries to undermine the medical professionals working inside the clinic by presenting their own version of medical information that has been laced with inaccuracies, falsehood, outright lies, religious-based opinion, highly exaggerated risks, and references to biased studies that have been discredited. Based on my own experiences and the experiences and eyewitness accounts of others, they make women feel uncomfortable at best and harassed, judged, intimidated, and bullied at worst. The clinic staff has admitted there are women that wait until the protesters aren’t at the clinic to stop by, which is more evidence that their presence at the clinic is not positive. One person explained while he was picking up his child from the bus stop, he saw one of the more aggressive protesters chase a woman in crutches down the block while she yelled that she was just there for birth control to regulate her menstrual cycle. Anyone I’ve ever conversed with about this group, including those that are against abortion, has expressed confusion over why there are protesters outside a clinic that doesn’t offer the abortion services they are against and wants to reduce the number of unplanned pregnancies by making reliable birth control more accessible to all women. Plus, these sidewalk crusaders act like they’re the ones being victimized whenever any woman has decided she has had enough of being stalked and harassed outside her trusted healthcare provider and stood up to these people. If this pro-life group is as positive, helpful, empowering, and supportive of women as they believe they are, then why is the overall reaction to their actions negative and why are patients trying to avoid them?
The most interesting thing about Faust’s letter is stating that the top two responses he and his group gets from the patients they converse with are “That’s why I’m here, to get my contraceptives” and “I would never have an abortion.” It’s sad that women feel the need to explain their visit with their trusted health care provider to judgmental strangers that have no business being there, but these responses are a huge sign that women are perfectly capable of avoiding abortion without the assistance of sidewalk counselors. Either women are controlling their fertility to greatly lessen the chance of an unwanted pregnancy or women wouldn’t get an abortion if she found they were pregnant regardless of whether they’re taking birth control to prevent a pregnancy when she’s not ready for one. Women who are unsure about what to do in the event of an unplanned pregnancy have access to a wealth of accurate information and resources inside the clinic in order to make informed decisions, lessening the chances of making a choice they’ll come to regret later on.
Seriously, Faust and his band of sidewalk counselors need get a clue and realize that their presence is neither wanted nor necessary. It’s time they started leaving women alone and trust them to make their own decisions…in fact, its been long overdue.
Over the holidays, my husband and I traveled to Ironwood, Michigan to spend Christmas with his family. On the way to a surprise birthday party, I caught the words “pregnancy support” on a building sign as we drove by.
The suspicions that aroused from seeing this phrase were confirmed with a simple Google search on my phone: Ironwood has a crisis pregnancy center. And according to their website, they’ve been offering their services to the area for ten years.
Why I hadn’t noticed the crisis pregnancy center in Ironwood until then? It stuck out like a sore thumb because I’ve done a lot of research into crisis pregnancy centers, but the last time I was in Ironwood it had only been a couple months since I discovered what crisis pregnancy centers were and began learning how to spot them. Because of the way they present themselves, they typically go unnoticed by the general population while appearing like beacons of hope to women facing unplanned pregnancies.
New Beginnings Pregnancy Support Services is a rarity among crisis pregnancy centers by at least stating somewhere on their website that they do not provide, recommend, or refer for abortion and that their information should not be relied on a substitute for medical/professional advice. Interestingly, their website also isn’t completely wiped clean of their Christian, pro-life agenda and you’ll find the tiniest hints of it sprinkled throughout their website. They also don’t seem to have a secondary website meant to attract donors that states their true intentions of being a crisis pregnancy center.
However, they’re like other crisis pregnancy centers in other aspects. With the exception of admitting they don’t support abortion and the small references about their pro-life view, they present themselves like any other crisis pregnancy center.
*Professional-looking website layout with high quality stock photos of women, pregnancy tests, etc.? Check.
*Lot of empathize placed on being a safe, welcoming, and supportive environment? Check.
*Insistence on being confidential, supportive, etc.? Check.
*Claims of offering accurate information? Check.
*Not calling themselves a faith-based crisis pregnancy center? Check. Despite the few references to a pro-life view and Christian beliefs, they don’t actually come out and state they are a pro-life, Christian crisis pregnancy center. Instead, they refer to themselves in a vague way while still appearing to be supportive and confidential: “We are a safe, welcoming place for individuals, and families to receive education, services and support. All of our services are free and confidential.” (from their Facebook page)
Additionally, NBPSS states “Client information is kept confidential to the full extent allowable by law.” This gives the impression that they are a professional place that safeguards client information, but this statement is useless. Perhaps the ones that have gained medical status to be able to use ultrasound machines have to follow HIPAA laws to keep client information confidential, but, generally speaking, crisis pregnancy centers are not medical. Therefore, they’re not required to protect client information. Not surprisingly, there have been numerous instances of centers harassing abortion-minded women afterwards or even contacting her family, friends, and co-workers about her abortion plans in order to shame her out of getting one.
NBPSS’ website lists the logos for Heartbeat International and Care Net, the nation’s two largest crisis pregnancy center networks. NBPSS is officially a Care Net affiliate as they are listed on Care Net’s website as one of their crisis pregnancy centers, but not Heartbeat International. The center can also be found on Option Line, a website created by the two organizations to direct women to their pro-life Christian crisis pregnancy centers. Both organizations have a nasty history of falsely advertising themselves and offering inaccurate information in order to lure women and potentially scare or shame them out of getting an abortion, using birth control, having pre-marital sex, or anything not in line with Christian beliefs. Being associated with either one of these organizations is not a good thing.
Despite NBPSS’ website claiming to offer accurate information about abortion procedures and risks, the section on “Abortion Risks” indicates that at least some of their information may be inaccurate. It mentions that some studies suggest connections between abortion and breast cancer, which is something the pro-life movement has pushed like its fact despite there not being reliable, hard evidence to prove a link between abortion and breast cancer or that abortion increases a woman’s risk to get breast cancer. NBPSS’s “Abortion Risks” section also alludes to symptoms related to Post-Abortion Stress Syndrome, a term coined by the pro-life movement for a perceived connection between abortion and mental health. Though the pro-life movement insists women are likely to suffer from extreme negative emotions following abortion, PASS is not recognized by any health organizations as studies show there’s no link between abortion and mental health problems and more current studies show only a small percentage of women regret their abortion. In general, NBPSS seems like any other crisis pregnancy center by treating abortion as problematic—insisting that women thinking of abortion to schedule an appointment to be educated on with their own version of the facts—while parenting and adoption are presented as positive, noble, and perfect as if either of those options cannot possibly be riddled with their own issues.
Crisis pregnancy centers are strategically set up in key locations. The best spot for a crisis pregnancy center to set up shop is right next to an abortion provider, using a similar name and outward appearance in order to mislead women looking for the abortion provider into the center. They are also found in poverty-stricken areas and college towns as unplanned pregnancies are likely to occur in those places. NARAL’s report “The Truth about Crisis Pregnancy Centers” states that crisis pregnancy centers have also been setting up in areas with high concentrations of African-American and Latina women, noting that “the rate of unplanned pregnancy among African-American women, particularly among teens, far outpaces that of other groups—51% of African-American teen girls will become pregnant at least once before they turn 20.” A crisis pregnancy center in Ironwood seems out of place considering the town doesn’t have any of these ideal features…until you consider its geographical location.
Guttmacher explains, “In 2014, some 6,050 abortions were provided in Wisconsin, though not all abortions that occurred in Wisconsin were provided to state residents, as some patients may have traveled from other states [emphasis added].”
Women in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula, where Ironwood is located, are severely lacking in access to abortion services. The sole provider of any abortion services in the entire UP is the Planned Parenthood Marquette Health Center, which only offers the abortion pill. Women in the UP seeking abortion in Michigan beyond nine or ten weeks would have to travel to Saginaw County in Michigan’s mainland. Saginaw County is at least a three hour drive from Michigan’s UP. As Ironwood is located right next to Wisconsin’s northern border, it’s possible a crisis pregnancy center was set up there to catch upper Michigan women who find it would be easier and are willing to cross state lines to receive abortion services.
Whatever the reason for a crisis pregnancy center in Ironwood, it doesn’t look good between the association with deceptive crisis pregnancy center groups and hints of false information on pregnancy options. Perhaps someday I’ll go in to see for myself if my gut instincts and research are correct.
Note: At the time of posting, the NBPSS website appears to be down.
One aspect that wasn’t affected by my emotional struggles was writing opinion letters for the paper. Faust is perfectly content with constantly beating a dead horse when it comes to the pro-life agenda, continually recycling the same language and phrases to the point where all his letters sound alike with subtle variations. For me, there wasn’t much point in continuing to write. Facts and statistics don’t matter to a movement that believes they are helping women by lying to them and shaming them in front of healthcare providers and feel their actions are justified by religion. I didn’t have anything new to add so I stopped writing following my last letter earlier this spring.
New subject matter to write about came in the form of Apple Pregnancy Care Center, a pro-life crisis pregnancy center out of Eau Claire, advertising on the high school sports calendar. I am against crisis pregnancy centers due to them presenting themselves as women’s healthcare clinics when they’re actually pro-life ministries with false information and zero medical services. This crisis pregnancy center in question was (and still is) discreetly advertising in the paper and now they were blatantly advertising on a free poster that anyone could pick up, including business owners that would want to display the sports schedule in their establishments. It had the potential of ensuring that these sorts of places continue to dupe women facing pregnancy scares or an unplanned pregnancy.
I struggled to write it for a couple of weeks, but finally managed to submit something to the paper towards the end of September:
“Bad Apple Part of Spoiled Bunch”
Those who picked up the Black River Falls (BRF) Tigers sport schedule poster may have seen the sponsored advertisement for a crisis pregnancy center (CPC), a type of faith-based non-profit established to counsel women against abortion. I suspect it went unnoticed by most due to the way it presented itself
If you thought Apple Pregnancy Care Center was anything but a religious anti-abortion organization, you fell for the questionable advertising tactics crisis pregnancy centers often employ. I was fooled, too, while researching Option Line. Eleven of the fifteen places listed for Wisconsin appeared to be reproductive health clinics. However, the “pro-life” protesters outside Essential Health began distributing business cards for Apple PCC, praising their anti-abortion views despite its website stating that it discusses abortion as an option.
Option Line is run by the two biggest CPC networks in the country, Heartbeat International and Care Net. All the “clinics” were crisis pregnancy centers, most having secondary donation websites explaining they were anti-abortion organizations (example: friendsofapple.org)
Apple PCC’s poster ad is a perfect example of how most CPCs don’t disclose they are an anti-abortion organization in their advertising, official websites, and other media. They’ll use keywords like “options”, “choices”, and “informed decisions” in order to sound neutral or pro-choice. When presented alongside “free and confidential” services like pregnancy testing and all-options counseling in a “non-judgmental environment”, it subtly creates the illusion they are a hospitable women’s clinic that advocates for choice. Because of this, there are countless stories of women that went into these places assuming they were trained medical professionals that offered accurate information and resources only to leave feeling duped and mislead.
What CPCs offer is worse than how they lure unsuspecting women into their establishments. CPCs have consistently touted falsehoods about abortion and reproductive health based on poor research and outright lies. Examples of false hoods include “condoms are porous”, “birth control are abortifacients”, and “abortion causes breast cancer, infertility, and/or psychological damage.” Though their advertisements imply they’re medical, the most CPCs offer in terms of medical services is a basic urine-based pregnancy test that is self-administered. As HIPAA laws only apply to actual medical facilities, CPCs aren’t required to safeguard any client information, which may include contact information, S.S. numbers, and medical history. Not surprisingly, there have been instances where CPCs have harassed women considering abortion at home and work, even going as far to reach out to her friends and family to expose her personal information with them.
CPCs typically do offer material items to women that decide to parent, but only on a one-time emergency basis unless enrolled in an education program (“Earn While You Learn”) where points to purchase items are earned by participating in classes and/or Bible study. Despite its potential benefit, it does not make up for the shady tactics and spreading of misinformation.
Yes, parenting and adoption are both legitimate options and its perfectly acceptable for women to choose either of those options. The thing that is completely unacceptable are organizations that exploit the vulnerability of scared and uncertain women in order to promote those options while discrediting the third legitimate pregnancy option through negative propaganda.
Women deserve to have access to accurate, unbiased information and resources; not be misled and lied to.
Looking back on it, I shouldn’t have been surprised when Faust popped into my workplace a couple days after the letter was published and on the day his pro-life group was having a bake sale across the street. Maybe I didn’t think anything of it since he’s left me alone these past few months. He hasn’t been appearing in front of my counter at work or going out of his way to greet me in public like he was before. The only time I’ve been truly bothered by him these past few months was when the occasional Planned Parenthood donation made in his honor resulted in mail being sent to my personal address, either in the form of a copy of a letter he wrote to the president of Planned Parenthood or a thank you card informing me he donated Bibles in my name. (Currently, eight Bibles have been donated in my name and I have three copies of letters he supposedly wrote to Cecile Richards). Aside from the random donation and swiping all the Apple PCC cards he leaves at the library, I’ve been mostly inactive. I suppose he wouldn’t have any reason to go out of his way to see me.
Writing that letter for the paper gave him a reason to visit. It doesn’t seem like an accident that he would appear almost immediately following the publishing of my letter when he hasn’t bothered to show up in months.
Between my major depression and the overwhelming workload that day, I was already distressed even without Faust coming over to carry on awkward conservation. He spoke with that programmed politeness that has earned him the name “Stepford Wife”. He thanked me for, as he put it, “coming out of retirement”. Odd that I write a letter condemning the kind of organizations he supports for being dishonest and he thanks me for it like he was an adoring fan of my work. I felt like he was mocking me under that polite facade that sounded like he was reading a scripted speech from a teleprompter. I wasn’t in the right state of mind to deal with him and certainly was in no mood for his presence, but he approached me while I was on the clock at my workplace. I just stood there and was forced to listen. What else was I supposed to do? If I told him off at work, I have no doubt he would go straight to management outraged by the employee that was rude to him. I think he knows he backs me into a corner by approaching me at work and that I’m powerless to stand up to him without potentially risking my job for it.
Then he pretended that he remembered something he was supposed to tell me as if it weren’t the main reason he stopped by out of the blue: Melinda Gardner, director of Apple Pregnancy Care Center, was going to be speaking at their annual youth pro-life meeting and apparently wanted to meet me, extending an invitation for me to come.
Everything else is kind of a blur. With that unwanted conservation piled on existing stress, I think my brain shut down manual mode and started running on auto-pilot. I vaguely remember a co-worker who was standing by asking what that was all about and then going to the bathroom to wait out a small panic attack.
It sounds a bit strange, but all I could think about in the bathroom stall was the scene in “The Little Mermaid” after Ariel’s grotto gets destroyed. If the “Dicktator” is like Judge Frollo, then Faust is Ursula. Popping up at the precise time to seize the moment, both Faust and Ursula display kindness and claim to be sympathetic and helpful toward the “poor unfortunate souls”, but it doesn’t take much to realize that the compassion is superficial and part of a calculated act. He might as well have said, “Oh! And there is one…more…thing!” like Ursula did concerning the price for helping Ariel when he suddenly remembered having to tell me about the speaker at their meeting. I can’t rule out that his visit was possibly a means of intimidation or shame even though he halfheartedly acted like he was supportive of what I wrote. It doesn’t seem all that far-fetched when I consider what occurred following the counter protest of the “life chain” he was in charge of a couple weeks later: He approached us, thanked us for coming, and even encouraged us to write letters to the paper…then we found ourselves vilified in the paper by another pro-life supporter (and featured a picture of us taken by yet another supporter) because we stood up to them. Ursula was also encouraging and supportive of what Ariel wanted to do, but made every attempt to sabotage her because she didn’t want the mermaid to succeed in her goal.
Maybe it’s just a crazy thought from overthinking it too much. Then again, pro-life supporters have tried to silence pro-choice supporters through shame, intimidation, and even threats. It wouldn’t surprise me to find that Faust wishes to take my “voice”, so to speak.
Silly mermaid analogies aside, why on Earth would a director of a secretly pro-life crisis pregnancy center want to meet with someone that has spoken out against such places? An activist I’ve been speaking with for the past year or so provided a possible answer: “They really like to try to talk in circles and get people to back off.” She has a point. Every time I’ve written a letter and both times I’ve counter protested the Life Chain, a pro-life supporter has been quick to write a criticizing letter in response. Faust has appeared at work whenever I wrote a letter and was quick to approach us at the Life Chain. I expect thank you letters for Bible donations made in my name or copies of letters to Cecile Richards whenever I press that donation button on the Planned Parenthood website. Basically, I stand up to them and they go on the offensive. Honestly, I think the director of the crisis pregnancy center that I was overly critical of wanting to meet with me was another attempt by pro-life supporters pushing back against the lone pro-choice woman that dares to speak out against and question this movement.
Last year, Faust invited me to this annual youth meeting so I could learn what they were about and what they were teaching teenagers. “At the very least, it’ll give you more fodder for your letters,” he said, still speaking in that programmed politeness. At the time, I had just written a letter that had referred to these pro-life supporters as “anti-woman” and I swear the speaker looked straight at me when she explained to the teenagers that her pro-life beliefs didn’t make her anti-woman. I’m sure this year’s meeting would have been more of the same: pizza, annoying hymns, and adults giving teenagers misinformation about abortion and birth control while staring down the elephant in the room wearing the Butcher Babies t-shirt.
Obviously, I didn’t go this year’s meeting. I imagine the director of Apple PCC would wear that noble and righteous front like a mask and put on a show to try and convince me that they’re not the deceptive villains I’ve found they are. I found better plans for that night. While pro-life supporters pretended they were brave crusaders standing up for human lives by attending a meeting and eating pizza while planning on doing nothing else, I went to a meeting about domestic violence (which was unfortunately canceled) and a fundraiser for a local organization that seeks to help teenagers aging out of the foster care system.
My absence at the meeting was brought up a couple weeks after the meeting was held when I went to get a refill on my birth control. Faust was outside with his damned sign and was insistent on striking a conversation with me.
“Hey! We missed you at the meeting! But the director of Apple would still like to meet you and said you’re welcome to come and tour the place anytime you’d like.”
I’m certainly not going to take up that offer. A personal tour would probably be as dishonest and misleading as their official website. Plus I’ve already been through the place because I posed as a client experiencing a pregnancy scare (actually, I was experiencing a scare at the time as I hadn’t had a period for about seven weeks).
Maybe I was powerless to say anything at work, but I wasn’t in front of the clinic. I quickly and curtly told him, “Sorry, but I had a fundraiser to go to” and walked inside the clinic while he disappointingly said, “Oh.” Thus, ends this frustrating and weird chapter of my activism story.